Sometimes I freak out a little bit about getting married. Josh does too; I think it would be unnatural and extraordinary if we didn't have moments of anxiety.
Last night we were sitting down for dinner talking about the things we were nervous about, and what we missed about living alone. It's funny, the things we miss are stupid and selfish- yet we both miss them. We have the same anxieties about the future, the same desire to remain autonomous.
After dinner we were playing Uno at the kitchen table, the whole time joking and laughing so hard tears were rolling down our faces.
I used to wonder why people would ever get married, women especially. Now I can't imagine- fears included- living without Josh. It is such a simple thing, being with this one person; living a simple life. Walk the dog, make dinner, do the laundry, it is routine and a little boring, maybe, but seldom unpleasant.
And at night, when we lay in bed drifting off to sleep, his skin feels like my skin.
